Been feeling better. Unfortunately feeling better doesn’t automatically fix my situation. Still unemployed, still broke. Got motivation. But I Just have only a few options on where to exert that motivation.

I’m not feeling down or depressed but there’s still an odd guilt. Like I’m embarrassed. Not depressed, But the anxiety is still there. Still holding up in my bedroom. It’s a little hard to have all these feelings and emotions in a house that’s always full of people.

I was invited to hang out for beer pong and video games at a friend’s apartment this weekend . Something to look forward to. Of course I’m sure there’ll be binge drinking involved but I haven’t drank since Labor Day so it’s cool. I’ll just make sure not to take my meds that day. 

Wondering if I’ll be hearing from the Drug Buddy tomorrow night. It’s about that time again  but I’m not sure if the invite will be extended due to that unfortunate awkwardness after Labor Day. Either way, I won’t be partaking. I’ve been planning on taking a hiatus from the hard partying for awhile. Try to clean my act up a bit.